Still nothing. No luck. Not one break. I spend each day searching and applying for jobs. Nothing and....... nothing.
Now it wasn't so bad before, I had some money saved up and it felt good to just not have any obligations. But it's been over 2 months since I quit my job and I am running out of money. I still do not regret quitting. Nope. I will stand by that decision forever. But... the stress and frustration of unemployment is getting to me. Everything annoys me and I just hide away in my bedroom looking for jobs online and watching whatever television show marathon is on... with the occasional guitar, crochet, or painting break.
I don't like to leave my room because leaving it means temptation. The temptation to spend money is overwhelming. It's just a latte! No it's not. It's just mascara! No it's not. I don't have the luxury of rich parents. I'm probably a stronger person because of it, but damn, that would be a nice asset right now. I do, however, have the luxury of an extremely generous boyfriend who takes me out to dinner and pays for gas and movies (everything!) when we hang out... so I do get to see the light of day once in awhile. And Katie bought me dinner last week and I am thankful for that! (Katie gets a shout out because she is one of the few who read this... and Kate, next time... Margaritas will be sorely needed)
I keep getting tricked, getting so close... a hiring manager will call me and ask for some more info, or one of my references will tell me they were contacted. And then... Nothing and..... nothing.
So I just got to keep on going. Maybe get a crappy seasonal job for now. Oh the holidays, I have got to muddle through somehow! For Christmas, everyone is getting home-made hats and paintings or a special song written just for them. I hope I don't have to subject my loved ones to that. For their sake more than mine... somebody better hire me. :)
