Wednesday, December 22, 2010

My published Blog entry for a different blog...

I got to write a blog for work: http://ecologywa.blogspot.com/

I also made short informational video. Which, for the record, I could have done before I went to film school when I did video editing while getting my undergraduate degree. Although going to film school gave me some more practice, which enhanced my skills... still not worth the 54K I paid in tuition.

It was nice to get to reach out of my administrative support boundaries at work and get to use some of my specialized skills. Wish I could get some specialized compensation for my contributions... but oh yeah, the state is broke.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Vancouver Film School

A Letter to Vancouver Film School:

I am writing to state my disappointment in the Film Production Program of Vancouver Film School. There are many, many reasons why I feel like the enormous amount of money I paid was not worth the experience. I felt this way for most of the year I attended, but I tried to make the best of it, I tried to extract what I could, hopeful that things would change. When I heard complaints about the program I was constantly told, "It is what you make it." So I thought, I am a smart, good student and a hard worker... so if it is what you make it, GREAT! But really, it should have been my first clue. Why would so many people be complaining?

It's been awhile since I graduated from the program in 2008... but I still cringe when I think about my year at VFS. And it's even worse when I think of the amount of money I have to pay each month until the year 2038 for this below mediocre experience... I think that is the year I am supposed to retire. At least Canadian students only pay a small fortune... even though I cam from less than a hundred miles south of Vancouver... I paid almost double. I could have bought a house instead... would have been a smarter investment.

First of all, I would like to say that I had fun at VFS, learned new things, and met a lot of wonderful people. However, I am extremely upset with the integrity of the program. I understand that institutions always have problems and kinks to work out and that it isn't easy to please everyone. I have heard numerous complaints from classmates, those who graduated before me, and ex-staff members. I am simply stated the issues that have truly bothered me.

1. Instructors gossiping with students during class time/production meetings. On numerous occasions during classes while we were split up into our crews, our instructors would speak poorly or gossip to us about the other crews/shows. This upset many students and it created a loss of respect among students  for their instructors. It is one thing to bring up some issues to learn from, but to insult another crew or other students is absolutely unprofessional for an educational institution. I also heard that instructors would name students who did poorly or made mistakes in their pitches/proposals/assignments. I am all for giving students examples of what not to do... but an instructor naming names only incites more gossip and a lack of willing to work with each other among the class. Students are lectured constantly for being difficult during crewing, when it is the instructors who encourage and cause this behavior.

2. I have had some trouble trying to describe one of the issues that truly left a negative impression of VFS for me. Instructors and Staff seem to label students and write them off as that kind of person all year long. This prevents students from growing. I was personally told by an instructor, "Everyone knows you're a fussy girl." I feel like this was a label given to me because I would speak up and ask questions. I even had instructors make fun of me for asking questions. Which is not a positive way to run a classroom. 

Another example of this is a young man in my class who was a bit of a goofball and often overlooked for roles of leadership in the beginning of the year. At the end of the year, the instructors asked for students to volunteer to be leaders in a crewing session. He volunteered and the class was behind him, but the instructors wouldn't allow it. These things stunt the growth of students. In an educational institution, students should be encouraged to try new things and given opportunities to excel and flourish.

And now I hear that the school is forcing Ricky Choi out of his position as an instructor at VFS. He was the number one most positive instructor. He encouraged students to use their brains and challenge themselves. He also did not bounce around the halls talking smack about students. Ricky Choi is a true professional. Without Ricky Choi I would completely lose all hope in the program. Ricky Choi (among a few other instructors such as Will Meadows) offered the VFS Film Production Program its only thread of integrity.

3. And now let's talk about the many rules the program lays out for students. Students are told that there are standards within the crewing process. Students need to get certain grades/marks and acceptable attendance in order to hold certain crew positions. These rules are only enforced when the crewing board feels like it. This leaves the students who follow the rules in order to achieve their best out in the dust. Students who complain to the administration seem to get whatever they want, even when they don't really deserve it. I have no sore feelings against any of my classmates for getting selected for any positions. Everyone puts in what they want and from there, it is a complete wild card. So again, no integrity in the crewing process. It didn't matter if we followed the rules or not. I received a non-passing grade on the major sound exam, which meant... I was not eligible to be a sound mixer. Yet, I was selected to be a sound mixer on the last show. I asked to be one, so I was glad to get it... but I should not have been eligible if the instructors followed the rules. I understand that crewing is difficult, but I also think the school should not set rules that they choose to ignore.

Now I want to make it clear that I honestly liked my instructors for they people they are. There was only one male instructor I thought poorly of... probably because he asked me if I had a boyfriend because I "could use that kind of support." Hinting that I needed to get laid. What an unprofessional, arrogant, ass. Other than him, everyone else was cool... just not the best instructors.

In an educational atmosphere, students should feel encouraged rather than worried about what their teachers are saying behind their backs to their peers.

The best instructor of the VFS Film Production Program is easily Ricky Choi. Shame on VFS for dismissing his invaluable life experience and teaching capabilities. 

I could go on and on with examples of how bad the program is. If I could go back in time, I would definitely NOT go to VFS and I do not and will not ever recommend it to another person. The only good thing was meeting my wonderful classmates and all of the other super cool, but unfortunately shortchanged students.


Sincerely,

Elisa V. Sparkman

Film Production Class 118 (Aug 2007- Aug 2008)

Monday, April 26, 2010

Good is Good

God. The Lord. The Holy Spirit. Jesus.

Religion is so important to a lot of people. Maybe it is the basis for the way someone lives, or the way someone thinks, or who they are friends with, or who they vote for...

A common thought about religious people is that they are good. You know, those goody goody church going people... Some one who goes to church and believes in God must have good morals and values because they believe in the good Lord and that means they are going to Heaven.

I am a non-believer. And I get SO irritated when people find this out about me and their reaction is "Oh, that's sad." And religious people seem to judge me for it. And sometimes I just want to snap at them and say, "I may not be a Christian, but my behaviors are more 'Christian-like' than yours." So many people go around proclaiming the "word of the Lord" one minute and then closing their hearts and minds and behaving in hateful, hateful ways. From the every day judgmental person... to the racist next door... they practice hateful behavior and cover it up with Religion.

Bottom line: You do not need to be Christian or religious at all to be a good person.

Why does not having religion have to be so negative? It is so absolutely freeing to believe that there is no Hell, there is no Devil, there is no all powerful God who will punish me if I say his name in vain. I believe in being a good and honest and loving human being. But not because there is this ancient book that tells me I should love my neighbor, but because it is human nature and that is who I am. I behave this way not because I want to make sure I go to Heaven... but because I want to and it is my decision to.

People say God is good. But you know what? Good is Good... no matter what you believe or what you don't believe... good is good.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Finally!

I finally got a job... and a good one for that matter!

I am so lucky to be hired on as a lead secretary at a state agency! Which means, medical and dental, a retirement plan, sick leave, vacation time, and paid holidays. I hit the mother load! And I am absolutely grateful and content with this new position. I feel like I deserve it. I was at my wits end... and I have worked really hard.

Some staff members took me out to lunch the other day. I had the mortifying moment when they all confessed to Googling me and finding all my music recordings and videos/films, and this blog... so I suppose I should give a shout out to all of the the EAP people who may be reading this. :)

I started working this past week, December 28. Toward the end of my first day, my supervisor (who is awesome!) told me that I needed to take my "Personal Holiday" day before the end of the year or I would lose it. Since personal days do not carry over year to year. So, here I am, in my first week of my new job... with a paid day off.

NOW what am I supposed to write about in my stupid whiny blog? I have a great job... I have the best boyfriend ever... hmmmmmmm... Life is pretty wonderful! But I'm sure I'll find something to complain about soon.

2009 was an eventful year for me. Full of extreme highs and extreme lows. I think it has been... scratch that, I am positive it has been the most Bi Polar year of my life. I kind of feel like there is nowhere to go but UP from now on! I sure hope so! I see a light at the end of the tunnel! And that light just might be retirement... but for now let's just pretend that the light is 2010.

Monday, November 2, 2009

Nothing and........ nothing

Still nothing. No luck. Not one break. I spend each day searching and applying for jobs. Nothing and....... nothing.

Now it wasn't so bad before, I had some money saved up and it felt good to just not have any obligations. But it's been over 2 months since I quit my job and I am running out of money. I still do not regret quitting. Nope. I will stand by that decision forever. But... the stress and frustration of unemployment is getting to me. Everything annoys me and I just hide away in my bedroom looking for jobs online and watching whatever television show marathon is on... with the occasional guitar, crochet, or painting break. 

I don't like to leave my room because leaving it means temptation. The temptation to spend money is overwhelming. It's just a latte! No it's not. It's just mascara! No it's not. I don't have the luxury of rich parents. I'm probably a stronger person because of it, but damn, that would be a nice asset right now. I do, however, have the luxury of an extremely generous boyfriend who takes me out to dinner and pays for gas  and movies (everything!) when we hang out... so I do get to see the light of day once in awhile. And Katie bought me dinner last week and I am thankful for that! (Katie gets a shout out because she is one of the few who read this... and Kate, next time... Margaritas will be sorely needed)

I keep getting tricked, getting so close... a hiring manager will call me and ask for some more info, or one of my references will tell me they were contacted. And then... Nothing and..... nothing.

So I just got to keep on going. Maybe get a crappy seasonal job for now. Oh the holidays, I have got to muddle through somehow! For Christmas, everyone is getting home-made hats and paintings or a special song written  just for them. I hope I don't have to subject my loved ones to that. For their sake more than mine... somebody better hire me. :)

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

I guess you are too good for me, Wells Fargo

I really don't understand how I didn't pass the Wells Fargo initial screening process. Not that I wanted to work there. I actually have no desire to work at a bank.

But all I did was answer a little personal survey that asked questions like "Are you organized?" or "Have you worked in customer service before?" And I get this email saying that I did not move to the next screening level. Wells Fargo, you have offended me and I will now forever hold a grudge against you.

Over the past 3 or 4 months, I have applied for several jobs. I couldn't even count them. I have been looking all over western Washington and Oregon. I have only been granted ONE interview. I thought I was slumming it by applying to a bank. But the bank didn't even want me. Shit.

Hopefully I will hear back about the one job that has shown any interest in me. It would be the most perfect job I can think of. I would rock it and I would learn a lot from it. I hope I get it. I hope I get it. I hope I get it. I repeat those words in my head about once each hour of the day. Got to keep that positive energy flowing! Unless it has to do with Wells Fargo. Ef them and their effing surveys.